San Francisco

When Larry and I decided to apply for this internship, there was no doubt in my mind that we would not be sent to San Francisco. After all, this is were I grew up and they knew that! We were thinking St. Thomas or Puerto Rico. I might never know why Del Sol decided to send us here, however, we are making the most of it. It is amazing to have my family near by. I have decided that I am not quite cut out for city life so it is nice to escape to Walnut Creek every once in a while. We've been here for almost 2 months and I can now say I am a pro at the public transportation system. Although it is getting a little old, it is fun to say that I've done the city thing. I am very grateful to not have snow but this rain has got to go! I need sun shine, not fog and gloom! The weather is starting to improve and our spirits are lifting! San Francisco can be very beautiful! Plus you can't beat the shopping... it is Amazing! Which might not be a good thing for this shopaholic!

Since arriving, we have eaten at numorous incredible restuarants at a discount price because we are Pier 39 employees which is really sweet. We've both realized our love for crab cakes and I will attempt to make them this week! We've gone to the aquarium, union square and saw Wicked! It was amazing! I loved every moment! I just can't beleive that they were singing like that right there in front of me! It was fantastic! We are still planning a trip to sacilito, a climb up coit tower and a bike ride across the bridge. We're just waiting for the weather to improve. Also for Valentine's day, Larry got his much desired XBOX 360 (which I got for a steal on craigslist!). He also took a trip to Miami with a friend last week.

Also, I just wanted to mention that we would love visitors! If any of you want to come visit San Fran, we have plenty of room to set up an air mattress!

A Life Changing Moment

Larry and I were witnesses to a suicide in San Francisco yesterday. As we sat to eat our lunch by the window with a beautiful view of the city we saw a man standing out of a window on the 4th floor of the building in front of our view. At first we thought it was for a movie because we'd seen a movie crew up the street. Then I thought it was some wise guy trying to get attention. A prank. A joke. The man couldn't have been more than 25 with longer dark hair wearing only a blue pair of underwear. I thought, no way that cute guy is really thinking about ending his life. It was unimaginable to me. So I watched and Larry and I joked because in my mind it was just a silly prank. The crowd grew larger and the police arrived. I started to get a bad feeling but still couldn't imagine that this stranger would jump. Although this man is a stranger I feel like I experienced something monumental with him. I find myself longing to know his name, his story. Wanting to help, however late it may be. He stood there for about 10-15 minutes, while we sat and ate our burgers. I know I shouldn't feel guilt but I cannot help it. I know there is nothing I could have done. The crowd reacted to the jump and I quickly turned my head to look. How I wish I hadn't! It only took a second for my head to whip back and the tears to start to flow. It was so shocking and surreal at the same time. Most people responded as I did. But many, I think unable to place their emotion in that moment covered it with laughs and cheers. It was so confusing but I just think some things take a while for the brain to process. My body was shaking and for the past day I have not been able to let go of the horrific image.

I decided to write about it as a sort of therapy. I can tell it has started to help already. I am so blessed. There are some who have such unimaginable hardships. My biggest trial is having to wear a hideous red polo to work everyday. I have an amazing family and had a fantastic childhood. And most importantly, I have the gospel. I know my savior and feel his love for me everyday. I know that this life is a probationary state and that true happiness comes from righteousness. If only this man had known what I have known my whole life. If only he had known that our savior loves him just as he loves me his life could have been so different. Everyone always says that people who die are in a better place. I have often thought that for people who commit suicide, how could it be better because they will have to face judgement for that choice. However, I don't know of that mans pain but our savior does and he will be judged fairly. I do know that because my life has been so blessed, I will be held to a much higher level than others. I think I am a good person but I know I can be better in so many ways. Through this experience I am determined to learn and grow. To really see with an eternal perspective when faced with petty conflicts. To be very slow to judge the choices of others. To show more love, more compassion.